Being Emo sometimes can have its benifits

This is serious

2009-04-26T14:18:00.002+08:00

Ok this is serious I'm not using this bloggie anymore and my new bloggie is http://iloveinsanity.blogspot.com/
Hope ya'll enjoy there

I'm happy for once....Yipee..-not-

2009-03-27T15:51:00.005+08:00

I'm kind of happy once....first of all I manage to pass my exams.....Secondly, David Archuleta is coming to Malaysia...Thirdly, our U.C.A is official we have our President, Vice-President, Secretory/Lawyer/Debater, Treasurer, Vice-Treasurer and an Auditor....I am of course the Secretory/Lawyer/Debater because I don't know how to lead people furthermore I prefer to stay in the shadows helping the leader...Fourthly, I have Flo-Rida's phone NUMBER!!! I'm still puzzled at how death is, I can't stop thinking of it, besides I don't want o die.....yet because I haven't slap Miley Cyrus( No Offense to her fan but I seriously hate her with a passion), writing the ULTIMATE STORY, watch finish my anime wish list, Watch my fave. Japanese Drama, tell my friend Nicole that Prince is not handsome but he is cute, and the list goes on and on and on.....so I don't want to die just yet.
Enough of my death wish, I recently went to quizilla and there is this couple of stories that I have read and it's freakishly awesome, try it the links are:-
http://www.quizilla.com/user/complacent/stuff/
The tittle of this story is Hey, Romeo Don't you think you're just a tad bit overrated. It's about a girl name Aurelie who parents was killed in a car crash and was in an orphanage...One day A principle of a academy, McAlister Academy adopted her and then her story begin when she bumped in to the school prefect Camaxtli Gallagher.......
the next one is:-
http://www.quizilla.com/user/Pirate.Maiden/stuff/
This tittle of this story is Falling for the mob boss's son...it's about this girl who's name is Shane and then there is a few transfer students and how her relationship with Leonardo the son of some Mafia group.....and there is another story that the user also wrote that is For love or for business and trust me you'll not regret it
Here I bit good bye my fair Maiden......Adeos.......

Am I Real Or Fake???

2009-03-22T13:50:00.003+08:00

I've been lonely...........things never seem right....my friends claimed that I'm cracked and hyper...but seriously I'm dying slowly inside....there's a lot of things in my mind..........My wild imagination that always seems to amaze me in different aspect and my hyperness are fake...or true..no one knows....maybe if my thyroid is cured will my wonderful imagination just disappear and I won't be hyper again??? I sometimes think that am I real or I'm just a useless character to fill up the space in this world......Is my hyperness fake? Is all my Imagination fake? Is all the things I see fake? Is all the friends I've meet fake?? sometimes I feel that all of this is just an imagination or I'm just dreaming....Am I suppose to exist in this world??? OK I know I'm being a jerk and so on but I guess that's the way I am and if I plan to go for a surgery to remove my thyroid......I dun know if I will be the same me again........things change you know....am I being truthful to my self or am I lying to myself..........This thyroid thing is really getting in to me.....gah.....I feel like jumping of a cliff and take a sneak peak of how the life after death looks like..............

My Newest Art.....

2009-03-19T10:45:00.007+08:00

These are pictures that I've taken and edited and it's 100% original....so dun try to post it in other media....if you want then please ask my permission... I think it's called copyrights.....

Things are brighter.....

2009-03-18T20:52:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling better at least and back to normal......but there is a lil' depression left in me.....anyway, I hate to admit but seriously I need to get a life.....I just finish watching Night Wizard...and read finish Eclipse and hoping my friend Shelly to lend me her Breaking Dawn. I am now listening to one of my fave. songs that I have forgotten through out the year.........The tittle is "I Will Be Right Here Waiting For You" by Richard Marx...The lyrics are below.......

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go,
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter,
I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

There is a chipmunk style of this song and the link is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jk5_8xpeFKM
The original version with Naruto AMV is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oqiANTIBdmA
Hope ya'll enjoy it as much as I do.....and I'm still wondering how death is....

Pictures Of My collection.....

2009-03-17T14:16:00.008+08:00

The Most Extream One-Day Camp ever

2009-03-17T13:40:00.003+08:00

This is the picture of 2 of my friends...in school under a rainbow on 14/03/2009 ...that left one is Sereeta(My twin sister from another mom and dad) and the right one is Marissa........we're having a one-day camp in my school SMK CGL...and it is so damn fun...I took many pictures...and trust me you can feel the love in the air.....
I'm currently feeling much better in my depression....turns out I'm sad for my friends it's kinda hard for me to explain....but I feel a lot better and I'm still wondering how life is after death...hope there is lots of chocolate...especially dark chocolate......
I have a week school break and I'm very bored I'm now in quizilla reading stories and currently watching Night Wizard...and reading Eclipse....so far everything is good
Have any one of you been in the school until 9p.m.......coz It's so damn cool....after the one day camp where we all went our separate ways.....me, Sereeta, Marissa sang the song Hot and Cold by Katy Perry....We were like shouting and singing and the other students thinks we're crazy...hahahaha...sweet memories......
Time really pass faster when you are having fun...try out and guess what I'm into photographing.....odd......damn I wish that day did not end....
Have you seen us cooking...damn that was quite nice acctually...the rice was so hard that it was so hard to chew and the only thing that ie eatable is the double-cheese-red-baked-beans with chicken.....and I was the one who cooked it.........damn that is soo weird....all the dishes are so uneatable..........damn those are sweet memories.....

I think I have depression

2009-03-05T13:46:00.002+08:00

This life seriously sucks.....seriously I feel so depress like the world is crushing down on me and I feel that life is useless and I am a waste of space in the world....sometimes I feel like crying but I can't and don't want to cry my dad says I'm lazy my mom thinks I'm crazy, My grandma don't know what I'm talking...life really suck...with the capital 'S'......I couldn't just concentrate in my studies..moreover my curricular activities..I hate my life sometimes I think of committing suicide and cutting my self...and I did cut my wrist with s blunt edge of a metal plate and my friend took it away before I did some serious damage to my self...I feel like seeing a counselor...and I don't know what to do...I feel so lost in this world as if I'm the only one in the world....at least I have good friends who is always by my side...I love them all but I feel so depressed and I don't know what to do.......maybe this is how life is.....if life is like this it SUCK

Life is full of depressions

2009-03-04T22:06:00.004+08:00

It's really hectic and I suck at Additional Mathematics, Physics and Moral...I seriously hate life and I just realize that how much I hate preps....they annoy me......I'm still thinking hoe death is and how it feels like......I fell so anti-social when I'm in school...I hate my classmates...the only friends that can make me smile at times like this are Nicole(Shiro), Chia Chih(Shana), Gabrielle(Tao-i), Melissa(Minase), Mellanie(Miala), Sarah(Saruhi), and Ee Hoong(Shirayuki).....they are always at my side when I needed them the most.....sadly...myclassmates aren't much help at all...I feel like the world is closing down on me...at least Malay, English, History, Biology, Chemistry and mathematics are not that bad.....at least It'll be better by next week...and did I say school Sucks...with the capital 'S'

2009-02-22T13:57:00.000+08:00

It really have been a though week.....seriouslly.....I was like ugh....this sucks, time is way too slow.....I hate exams and I wish it will pass quickly and trust me i hate everything......maybe coz I'm moody or this is how I really am but trust me it ain't good.....I hate life I wonder if I jump off a cliff what will happen if I die what does heaven or hell looks like....life is seriously full of mystery and trust me it is a pain in the ass.....I suck at living maybe my existence in this world is a waste of space......possibly but no one now the global warming sucks....EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD SUCKS.....................